Life is all about the Journey

Here I sit on my couch December 23rd, sick and listening to Christmas music to lift my spirits. As of today I have officially been unemployed for 50 days, wow time has really passed in the blink of an eye. I can't believe so much has happened in this short life of mine especially over the past few years.
After receiving notice of my soon to be unemployment I realized it would be a perfect chance to take a back seat and evaluate my life. Have I accomplished what I set out to do, what did I set out to do? Was I fulfilling my destiny or was I just another person to fill up this chaotic world we live in? What is my purpose and where am I to leave my mark before I die?

All of these things have ran through my head at some point in time over the last 50 days while I have had the chance to think open and freely without pressures. One thing that I have realized is that I am not exactly an introverted personality, I knew of this before but after looking back over 4 years of my life was spent sitting at a desk with limited contact to people. Friends, acquaintances and family members all have commented that I need to do something that I am passionate about as well as something were I have personal interaction.
Those 4 years of my life I was looking for an outlet to use this passion of mine in several areas. From coaching, to working part time retail and etc, it was just an outlet away from the desk. I have been able to spend much more time recently soaking up life with loved one's, something that I wouldn't have done before. While fighting inner struggles by myself these people have been at my side in one way or another and helped me through this JOURNEY.
It's incredible how as a fresh face right out of college you want everything right NOW. Maybe its what drives some people to work so hard to achieve certain monetary goals in life. As those years have passed me by, I really began to understand in a better fashion how life works. Patience is absolutely a virtue and things will come i n due time. I am so fortunate to surround myself with outstanding people whom actually genuinely care about me. As I was writing this post, recently named "Runner of the year" Rebecca Thomason was being a saint and dropped off some goodies to help me along while I am sick.

This is just an example of why I believe that I am at a good point in life, job or no job. At some point in life I have made certain decisions to get me where I am today. Going forward I look expand my passions and thrive towards ultimate goals in life that I may have held back on in the past. This journey has been quite amazing so far, especially in my career; high school geometry teacher, research analyst, assistant retail manager, co-founder of an online business, coach, and so much more.

There will be more greatness to come out of me and I plan to leave an everlasting mark in life in the hopes that I can make an impact in this selfish world. One day I will stand at the top of the mountain having conquered all of my fears and look down with a HUGE SMILE.

Thunder Road motivation

This past weekend I participated in the Thunder Road marathon relay as an official pacer and I had a blast helping someone out while soaking up all of the people cheering. Most of the people who live locally did some part of the Thunder Road event, being the 5k, half marathon, or the full marathon distance.

Every year I always make it a point to be around for this race in some aspect because I think its great how we have such a big event that continues to grow in my own backyard. Several of my friends and running buddies had amazing runs while waking up to below freezing temperatures. I had my duties were aligned, as I planned to meet up with Alice Rogers who was pacing for a debut 3:15 marathon somewhere around 13 miles. My plan before that was to run with Billy Shue who was also running the full but was shooting for a lofty goal of possibly 2:45 but with realistic goals of going sub 2:55 if all else fails.


While jogging between the 7th and 8th mile on the course, I was fortunate enough to see several friends like Paul, Matt, Greg and Brian running very quickly just before I spotted Billy cruising. Jumping in with Billy I could tell he was feeling great and was very confident with his ability to finish very strong. Since I started so early in the race, i decided to cut off around 10 1/4 miles to cheer on everyone else and wait to jump in. I was waiting with Logan and Glenn who were waiting for Mo to come through, who was shooting for sub 3:10 as her debut.



Watching all of these people pushing hard was great and made me feel amazing just being able to have the ability to run no matter what pace it is. I eventually jumped in and chatted with Alice who was making the marathon look like a breeze. My roommate Glenn had the duties to ride his bike with the boom box on it for tunes next to the runners for awhile to provide encouragement, but had technical difficulties with having extremely cold hands and had to retire early. Going around Charlotte I got to see all of the different crowds as well as different DJ's blasting music. Inside I was bouncing to the music whether it was 80's, rock or rap music, with a big grin.

Alice and I made it through the city passing person after person who went out just a bit to quick, and realized their was only 10k to go and she was actually in 4th place. Eventually due to a great race plan, we were rolling up the other women on the course except Mo who took the lead for good at 20 miles. Eventually taking over 3rd place, with the 2nd place woman way in the distance, Alice dug deep to catch up to her just before the end and narrowly miss 2nd place by 2 seconds! This reminds me of my pacing group last year, Logan shooting for the sub 3:10 goal while his 2 other teammates thinking the same thing. It all came down to the last straightaway and all 3 of these guys dug with everything they had to finish mere seconds apart over 26.2 miles, HOW EXCITING!

All in All I am just pumped to see that some good friends ran amazing and everyone seemed to be VERY pleased with their result no matter what. After getting home I wrapped up my 20th mile for the day with strides in the grass and felt amazing....this leads me to the title, "Thunder Road Motivation". As of right now I will be competing in a marathon come 2010. NYC is about 95% and I am about 85% confident I may train for the Shamrock Marathon come March. This makes for a very busy schedule for me come March/April...All of these races I am expecting new PR's while hoping for an injury free winter.



February 6th(my b-day) Tybee Half
February 13th- cupids cup 5k
March- Shamrock Marathon, Cooper River Bridge run, and MAP triathlon.
April- Boston Marathon(pacing logan)/ Duathlon Nationals.

Congrats to everyone who ran and I want to give shout outs to those I saw in person! (I hope I got everyone I saw)

Theoden Janes: 3:42
Chris Page: 3:12
Dianne Allen: 3:47
Paul Mainwaring: 2:38 (3rd overall)
Billy Shue: 2:44 (5th overall)
Mo Campbell: 3:04 (1st female overall)
Alice Rogers: 3:14 (3rd female overall)
Matt Jaskot: 1:17 - half
Jordan Kinnley: 2:29 (overall winner)
Brian McMahon: 1:15 (5th overall)half
Jefferson Waugh: 2:57
Paul Gonzales: 3:12
Jocelyn Sikora: 1:29 (3rd female overall) half
Amelia Slagle: 1:28 (2nd female overall) half
John Cristiano: 3:23
Lauren Tilton: 22:08 (5th female overall) 5k


So Marathon for real this time? I have nearly 3 months to train for it! Need to figure out a goal time

update soon!

I plan to update this post tonight finally! I missed a couple days and pics from the trip to colorado but i will hit the ground running tonight...

Flight Anxiety

(this post was actually written while in flight last week)

Right now i am at 34,000ft in the air in route to Denver, Co and their are clear skies! Flying over Tennessee was great, I could see everything in its beautiful entirety; lakes, rivers, and mountains.

Just months ago I could not bare to fly on any plane no matter the distance. After 9/11, I was a basically in panic mode while flying and it was just ridiculous at the time. My mother and one of my ex girlfriends at the time were so frightened to fly that after awhile both of them seemed to wear me down with the thought. I flew into Pennsylvania years ago with two friends who had never flown before and I was the experienced one by far, but I was scared. My friends were just casually talking and playing cards while I was gripping the seat with ultimate fear of death.



I have been on a plane maybe 200 times and here I was frightened. Flying from Boston in 2007 I was so stressed I tried to keep a conversation going with anyone around me, to keep my self pre-occupied, while getting under the skin of those just trying to relax on the flight. I was exhausted so much but the thought of sleeping wasn't even possible, so it just made matters worse. Recently I had a little break through with flying when I flew into and from Atlanta this year. I actually had a nice time enjoying the views out the window and read a little bit.



If I am to leave this earth it will be with God's grace and there is nothing that I can do about it. How many people suffer from flight anxiety out there? I am surprised more people don't flip out on planes but I guess those people don't even attempt to fly. Today's flight was great, it was super smooth, I got to read some of my book, write some goals down in the short term and even watch a little "24" from season 1.

Colorado: Day 5 "Diligent Focus"

Today was mostly an uneventful day comparative to the last 4 days, the highlight of my day was buying a new book at the “Boulder Bookstore” where I had the most amazing Carmel Latte’(I think it was my first actually).

I actually slept in a bit today and the plan was for Kylee and I to grab some lunch before she had to head into work. She drove ahead to run an errand and I jumped on the bike and made my way towards “illegal pete’s” which is basically qdoba or moe’s but more locally franchised right now. Kylee was running a bit late so I just kind of roamed around the block a bit checking out some stores. When Kylee arrived we jumped in line at “illegal petes” and it was pretty busy the whole time. I got my staple meal, a taco salad, which was excellent.


From their I went into Starbucks with kylee a bit and we got to chat some and I showed her my exciting book I have been trying to read forever. I brought no laptop this trip which would entice me to actually attempt reading “ Common Fire”: leading lives of commitment “. After parting ways with Kylee I made my way to the Boulder Bookstore / Café’. I wanted a caramel macchiato but they didn’t have it on the list so I tried that awesome Carmel Latte’. After I read a bit I made my way into the bookstore and browsed some books and one caught my eye. “The Richest man who ever lived: King Solomon’s secrets to success, wealth, and happiness." I read some reviews on the back cover and noticed Ruth Graham had some good things to say about this book as well as Jerry Falwell. Anything that concerns Christianity, happiness and success really grabs a hold of me so I went ahead and made the purchase.

I made a couple pit stops on the way back home to pick up a couple things and then I was set to get in a nice long run followed by a “Moonlight Mile” at the CU track. I hit the Boulder path equipped with 2XU race socks as well as my Sugoi arm sleeves just in case it got much colder. Kylee seems to run w/a short sleeve shirt no matter what but I wanted to bring something along to keep me warm, since EVERYONE else in Boulder wears pants and jackets while they run. As well everyone seems to run with a dog, it was amazing as I felt very out of place wearing shorts and not having a dog on most of my runs. I figured people in Boulder would be wearing singlets and would make fun of my light weight jacket ha.

On this run, I started in South Boulder and worked my way down the Boulder path way which travels basically below the city and has stops at every major intersection if you want to bear off. I passed lots of walkers, cyclist, and runners along the way. I was moving at a much better clip than everyone it seemed so I just kept rolling. I ended up outside of the city onto a trail which turned into the mountains with the main road parallel. I ran basically as far as I could until it was too icy to step on, so I took the time to stretch a bit and head back. At this point I was starting to freeze and just wanted to get back soon. I made my way back to the Colorado track at 11.25 miles into my run. It was closed to the public and locked up totally. I was a bit upset but I was also happy that I couldn’t bonk my attempted mile effort at altitude after 11.25 miles and a long week.


Once I got home I showered and thawed out basically in time to hit the road again on the bike. After mapping out my route I made a stop at “FlatIrons Coffee shop” just a couple miles away. I took the time to answer emails, check my flight schedule, make a couple calls, and check my bus route. The last thing I took the opportunity to do was look into tattoo’s, faith and the tree of life. I have wanted another tattoo since high school but just couldn’t find anything that had a real meaning to it for me. I planned to actually get one while in Colorado but things didn’t work out and its not something to rush. After the coffee shop I hit Qdoba’s and then went home to blog it up. Kylee’s roommate Christine was laying on the couch with her dog whom just had a minor surgery that day.

Christine’s alarm managed to go off about 18 times and she never actually got up which was amazing to me honestly. At about 12:30am I got up for some reason and I looked out the window and everything was covered in snow! The morning run is set to be something out of the ordinary for sure!!!!